Wow, it's already February. 2007 is flying by. So many things already have happened...our Anniversary, my mothers birthday (the first one without her), Valentines Day, Joey & Mel's birthdays, Bret transferred to McKinleyville High, I had the opportunity to start a new career with the airlines, passed the first test and start training in Portland on Feb.26. Very exciting and VERY life changing. I am scared, nervous, excited, apprehensive, overwhelmed....yes....very overwhelmed. I have been home for almost 5 years and have gotten very spoiled being able to be home. I have loved being able to care for my granddaughter and I can't imagine not seeing her every day like I have for the last (almost)5 years. She is in preschool now and starts kindergarten in the fall. She doesn't need her Nana as much. Oh, that makes me sad. She is growing up too fast...just like all kids do...just like we all do.
I don't know where the time goes. I wonder every night how today is already over. It just seems like every day goes by quicker than the last. Well, except maybe some days that seem to never end. Those are the days that are the worst. Then there is the sleep issue....oh my. I have always loved to stay up late to wind down after everyone else goes to bed. It's my time. But 4 in the morning is over kill of alone time. In the past 4 months, I seriously have stayed up till 3 & 4 in the morning at least 4-5 days a week and have never went to bed before 1 in the morning except maybe once or twice. I did go to bed at 5:30 pm when I went to Portland last week. I got back to the motel and layed down to rest before I went to dinner and the next thing I knew it was 10:30 pm and so I just stayed in bed till the morning. That's the most sleep I've had in the last 4 months.
Well, I leave to start training for my new job on Feb. 25, so I have less than 10 days to totally clean & organize my house, my life, and lose 10 pounds, start walking and exercising every day and drink tons of water. No problem, huh? Then come home & lose another 10 pounds in the next two weeks during "on the job training". Then I leave for another two weeks of training...so another 10 pounds during those two weeks. Yea, no problem. All this while still maintaining my house, my family, walking & exercising every day, eating a well balanced diet, drinking plenty of water, and maintaining my sanity. Piece of cake. (oh yea...no cake)
Wouldn't that be nice if I could just map out the next six weeks of my life so perfectly? 30 pounds in 6 weeks...YEA RIGHT. OK...so I was dreaming for a minute there. How come an actress can have an upcoming part in a movie and lose weight and get fit for a part in six weeks (after having a baby no less)but I can't? I guess because I don't have hundreds of thousands of dollars hanging in the balance for me like they do. That must be why the contestants from "The Biggest Loser" can lose so much weight so fast. It's all about the money$$ (and maybe the personal trainers). So all I need is some $$$ and a personal trainer and I'm in.
Ok, now I am seriously depressed.