I'm feeling very blue today. Feeling like I can literally feel my heart breaking. It physically hurts in my chest because of the losses I feel right now. I don't know if I can take anymore loss. It feels very empty and doesn't feel like the void can ever be filled. I guess some things in life just can't work out like we pray they would. It's "God's will" be done not "my will" be done. That's pretty obvious. I would have things turn out much differently but that must not be in Gods plan. I have to trust in Him that this is part of his plan for me and my family even though it doesn't feel right. I believe He knows each of us and doesn't give more than we can bear. I just hope I can be strong enough to accept it. I pray I can let go and believe that things will be OK. Today will be over soon and tomorrow is a new day and hopefully a brighter future. I'm not writing this for sympathy or to make anyone sad. I just know I'm not alone in how I feel sometimes and it helps me to be able to share my feelings even if it's in writing. I have to remember..."one day at a time..."